A while ago, I finished watching "I Hear Your Voice" and one of the scenes has been on my mind ever since. (If you haven't seen it yet, I highly recommend it. It has a little bit of everything in it, whether you like romance, comedy, mystery, suspense, family, etc., so definitely go and check it out.)
Since I don't want to spoil it for anyone who hasn't watched it yet, I'll be really brief in describing the scene. So in this scene, Hwang Dal Joong is talking to Attorney Shin right after his trial. Attorney Shin asks Dal Joong if he is still mad at what had happened to him. (Hwang Dal Joong was in jail for 26 years even though he never committed the crime.) And what Dal Joong said next just completely blew my mind.
He says, "I don't have much time left to live. I don't want to spend what little time I have left to live on hating someone. The very last emotion that I feel before I die...I don't want it to be such an ugly emotion such as that. That's why I forgave him."
I couldn't help but ask myself, "If I died today, what would my last emotion be?" Unfortunately, it would be sadness, anger, and frustration. I was mad at myself for living such a pathetic life, one that couldn't compare to everyone else around me. I was sad that I couldn't do anything I wanted to do. I was frustrated that I was always stuck being the same me. These emotions were with me for quite a while now. I constantly battled with my mental myself, struggling to free myself of these "ugly" emotions.
These so-called "ugly" emotions aren't necessarily a bad thing (cuz we're human..."Inside Out" anyone?), but if I were to look back at my life at this moment, they would be the only emotions that I would remember. And I don't want that. I want to look back at life and say, "Yes, I've smile. I've cried. I've experienced everything I wanted and I'm satisfied with my life." I want contentment to be the last emotion I remember.
But keeping myself buried in those "ugly" emotions will never let me accomplish that. Some things in life are not worth holding onto--instead, these things should teach us how to accept, forgive, and let go. I've been holding and focusing all my attention on all the wrong things in my life. Yes there were, are, and always will be things in my life that will make me feel sad, angry and unjust, but I'll just accept them and learn to let go, From now on, I'll put more energy in those things that are right with my life and I'll keep moving forward.
Besides, how you view life is really what you get in life. Keep thinking that life sucks and that's the life you'll end up with. On the other side, though, if you keep thinking that life is something precious and something that's worth it, you'll live a life that's amazing and full. And the beauty of it all is that everyone has their own way of defining what makes life wonderful. Having a family, growing old with a partner, or owning a business---these are all wonderful lives to somebody out there.
All in all, if there is something that's been weighing you down in life, remember that you can and are able to put it down. Let's live life so that on that last day, we can all say with a big smile, "I did."
Good night everyone. And sweet dreams :)
These so-called "ugly" emotions aren't necessarily a bad thing (cuz we're human..."Inside Out" anyone?), but if I were to look back at my life at this moment, they would be the only emotions that I would remember. And I don't want that. I want to look back at life and say, "Yes, I've smile. I've cried. I've experienced everything I wanted and I'm satisfied with my life." I want contentment to be the last emotion I remember.
But keeping myself buried in those "ugly" emotions will never let me accomplish that. Some things in life are not worth holding onto--instead, these things should teach us how to accept, forgive, and let go. I've been holding and focusing all my attention on all the wrong things in my life. Yes there were, are, and always will be things in my life that will make me feel sad, angry and unjust, but I'll just accept them and learn to let go, From now on, I'll put more energy in those things that are right with my life and I'll keep moving forward.
Besides, how you view life is really what you get in life. Keep thinking that life sucks and that's the life you'll end up with. On the other side, though, if you keep thinking that life is something precious and something that's worth it, you'll live a life that's amazing and full. And the beauty of it all is that everyone has their own way of defining what makes life wonderful. Having a family, growing old with a partner, or owning a business---these are all wonderful lives to somebody out there.
All in all, if there is something that's been weighing you down in life, remember that you can and are able to put it down. Let's live life so that on that last day, we can all say with a big smile, "I did."
Good night everyone. And sweet dreams :)
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